I have just come out of a 5 week relationship due to rumors and tension with a guy I hardly knew.
It's been a nightmare and he thinks me ending it is me saying I hate him etc but that couldn't be
further from the truth. If he ever reads this, I hope it will help him see how I really feel.
I have to pretend you no longer exist,
Even though I still hold on to our last kiss,
The last time you held me close in your heart,
Feels like yesterday but it's much longer than that.
I've deleted the messages I had on my phone,
An empty inbox reminds me I'm now alone,
The songs we sang are now just memories I keep,
I still hug your pillow when I fall to sleep.
I deleted the pictures in which together we posed,
Time changes everything but not photo's,
They remind me of the times we laughed and we smiled,
Though they also remind me we were only happy for a short while.
Too many people joined in and caused trouble,
Rumors and tension soon burst our bubble,
You stood against me and I stood back against you,
Our relationship was flopping and there was nothing we could do.
It became heated and we started to depart,
So I did what I knew what was best for my heart,
It hurt me, it stung me, I felt like breaking down,
But you did nothing to try and turn it around.
You thought me walking away was admitting defeat,
But it's because I care I pushed you away from me,
I couldn't give you what you obviously required,
You never loved me, just lusted and admired.
So please if you're thinking of me as I am you,
Remember the good things we used to do,
Don't regret me with hate, just with a fond smile,
I miss you even though I only had you a short while.