I used to believe I had an inner strength,
But for the life of me I don't know where it went,
I used to smile through my tears and sorrow,
Vowing to myself I'd smile again tomorrow.
Now I carry an emptiness within my heart,
My unhappiness has no ending or a start,
All I know is it continues to ache,
From bedtime at evening to morning when I awake.
It's like my world's been turned upside down,
My smile's overshadowed by a frown,
For everywhere I go and everything I do,
It still feels so weird doing them without you.
And I'm not upset because you're absent; not one bit,
It's because you know the truth but wont admit,
You hurt me so easily then call me a liar,
Extinguish my light; put out my fire.
I sit and wonder how you could do that and then,
Come back into my life just to hurt me again,
There were no limits; no line you wouldn't cross,
In this game you were playing you were your own boss.
All I did was love you and give you two beautiful kids,
You promised not to let them down yet you still did,
Still you're doing fine and I hear you're engaged,
I hope she is lucky and she doesn't suffer the same.
I am trying my best to climb out of this mess,
To carry on with life and to be a success,
I'm moving my life; I'm becoming my own driver,
For I refuse to be a victim when I was born a survivor.