I still feel sadness and an empty space
Sometimes even my head is a lonely place,
I still often spend time mulling over the past,
But it's time to move on and forward at last.
I keep telling myself moving on is OK,
Pretending I'm getting there slowly each day,
And part of me believes it then I hear a song,
That proves I was kidding myself; pretending I was strong.
It's not because I still love you that much I know,
But 5 years is a long time to give up for a life you don't know,
and even though you hurt me and you left me betrayed,
I still wish the whole pantomime could be rewound and re staged.
But the past is that for a reason it's the future that matters,
I'm sweeping up the bad memories you left me ripped into tatters,
I have a good future I want to be able to live,
And in order to do so 1st I must learn to forgive.
You ruined our life together and even broke my heart
But I know, good things happen when bad things fall apart,
So here's to the rest of my life, I am going to live it to the max,
Goodbye to being bitter, goodbye to our history and goodbye to the past!!