How can I
Make sense of this?
The oldest rule
In the book of
Love?
Love yourself
First.
How is it
Everyone has forgotten
This?
He hates himself
He loathes himself
He cannot stand
To be in his own
Presence
Alone.
How then can
His love for her
Be good for her
How can he be good
To her,
When he's a
Broken little boy
Not a man?
Someone please
Explain this to me,
Please Beloved
How do humans
Do this strange thing?
I can understand
Helping someone
Who is hurt
But to marry
The one who
Hates himself
Hoping he will one day
Get better?
Why does a woman
Go back to a man
Who hits her?
Why does a woman
Stay because
She says she is
Catholic?
Why do these
Women do these
Stupid things
For these men?
I don't understand
How he can hit her
And then say I'm sorry
For the 1000 time.
I don't understand
How he can know
He hates himself
Then act like it really
Doesn't matter
So long as she is
Around 24/7.
I don't understand
How after trying
To commit suicide
She praises how well
He cared for her,
When he was the reason
She tried to kill herself
In the first place.
It is in these moments
That I don't feel human
Because I can't
Understand either of them,
The man
Nor
The woman.
All I can do
Is love them both
In the midst
Of their collective
Stupidity.
We all take our turns
At swimming in
Our blind spots,
Some people
Drown in them.
I pray these crazy
People I love
Live through it all.
If they don't
I still have to respect
Their choices.
It's not called the
Darwin Awards
For nothing.
I have to laugh
For if not
I would find myself
Crying uncontrollably.
Some part of me
Must be that dumb
For if not
It wouldn't manifest
In my world…
Somewhere there
Is a responsibility
I must claim
And heal.
I love you.
I'm sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.
