Because of mental illness I'll never truly be free.
It's the curse from this chemical imbalance inside of me.
I'm forever trapped in the eyes of some of mankind.
Because of their gossip and judgement of my minds design.
People tend to judge what they don't understand.
And shy from it like a shark does to the sand.
I haven't been this way all of my life,
I went through traumatic experiences that cut my mind like a knife.
Now buried deep in my subconscious mind,
Is the pain and torment that many don't find.
It's easy to battle most of your conscious thoughts,
but your subconscious can leave you forever distraught.
For me medication has been my only release.
It's numbed my subconscious and gave me some peace.
Many say it takes a lot of strength to share my affliction openly.
But I write mostly for those afflicted like me.
I don't worry about so called 'normal' people and what they say.
I just hope that they won't end up like me some day.
Stanley Victor Paskavich