Suffering from depression
Has been here since 1999
Where I cry and whine
For no particular reason
When it's the dark mind season
Finally got the right pills
After five years of not
Being able to afford them
Then they stifle me
So cut the dose in half
I think
Two days later crying
As the serotonin and
Nor-epinephrine plummet
Thinking about how
One out of four kids
Said Happy Mother's Day to me
I was the best mother
I could be
Alone
Without a mom and dad
To back me
Without a husband to help me
I just had me
The me I remember
Worked very hard to
Support her kids
She survived incest
She survived neglect and child abuse
She survived 8 years of domestic violence
She survived seeing 250 deaths
She survived 5 years of college
She survived labor camps and living in a car
As a kid
She survived decades of being a 110% nurse
She survives
She survives whether you like it or not
With her nut pills.
