in the end
its hurts so terribly
one minute I'm OK,
the next minute I'm hurt
the next i understand
the next I refuse to accept
i don't want to see anyone
i don't want to speak
i feel si in my stomach
i feel selfish
I feel like i deserve this
I feel without purpose
I feel worthless
I feel angry because life seems hopeless
and i think how i should end this
but most of that's useless
because i know there's a future
i just want it to be with her
even though i know i don't deserve her
its just hurts so deeply
that she refuses to speak to me
we never intentionally hurt one another
so why cant we be civil
whats Gods plan
is he punishing me
am I punishing myself
my thoughts are all over the place
thinking of just walking out of this place
i don't know how many days it will take
to make the trek to north Dakota
or how I'll survive with 4 dollars
my shoes are worth out, I'm exhausted
my ne may be broken
my struggle is within
i still want to be with her
and I'm going to have to do this
and i know its not going to be easy
i just hope that she'll want me
in the end.
