When One Dismays You

I have someone I thought was very close to me as a friend and now I am saddened to say he isn't any longer.
Was beginning to believe there was something wrong with me and I blamed myself for the failure.
I have resigned myself to have changed my mind on the matter and say it was he who changed not me.
It could only be professionalism that he going by and doesn't mean to hurt me but he does.
I am at a loss of knowing which way to accept him and feel the same way I did for him before.
It is probably ludicrous; on my part, to feel the way I do about him when he doesn't feel the same way.
There is something within me that will not give up though I know I should.
This is why I am so dismayed and feel that it will not change for he is too much of a professional to do what he may feel within his heart toward me if anything at all.
I feel so outdone and really depressed over this that I am not able to think of anything else.
Possibly it will destroy me if I keep this up but how can I turn my back on him when I care for him the way I do.
What I need is direction from the Lord and He will straighten out everything within my own mind.
I have to have solace or else deal with more depression and my heart is getting weaker.
(© Poeticbearlovestowrite 2014)

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