Seeking an Answer
The dark clouds loom over my heart and soul
Seeing violence overwhelm his sweetness
Anger flashes and seethes with black fire
The desire to hurt, to cause pain in another
It overwhelms my vision of his gentleness
I look, seeking an answer
Autism is the diagnosis; I see beyond this
Such a fragile shell of self contains his peace
Lashing out violently when he perceives threat
Attacking ferociously without any mercy
Life is his battleground, a seven year old warrior
I ask, seeking an answer
Fear of the future pops up inside my mind
Can these demons within him be tamed?
Can he learn to lead a normal life rich with love?
Will he become the man that I dream for him?
I am hopeful, patiently waiting… patiently waiting
I hope, seeking an answer
Wrestling with peace within myself over this
Struggling to release the pain and anguish
Compassion draws me deeper into the fray
Becoming one with his pain, feeling the turmoil
I speak into the heavens; silence returns
I pray, seeking an answer
I listen… waiting… with patience…
Now with renewed peace
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2014