Testimony of the Goodness and Perfect Plan of God
By JudyLea, (Up dated 2020)
Who is God in my life?
God is good! I wouldn’t be alive without his saving grace and I wouldn’t be alive if he did't hear when I call. God the Father, His son and my Messiah Yeshua (Jesus) and the Holy Spirit are my love, my light, my life, my breath, my healer, my provider, my friend, my "Knight in Shining Armor", my Lord, my husband, my counselor and my heart changer! God is my savior in every way and proven to be my all and all.
It would take many books to write down all that God has done in my heart and life in the last 35 years. There really doesn’t seem time for that right now. For those who are awake realize that it isn’t business as usual. We are at the end of this age with the signs of Revelation all around us. Yeshua/Jesus has been calling people into the secret place for sometime out side of the deceptions that have inundated this world and its organizations that appear good but are a part of the enemy’s plan. However the Lord Almighty has a plan and uses everything for His purposes. He is faithful to set captives free and heal and grow us into call and plan he has for our life (Jeremiah 29:11)
So, I pray that this website carries the testimony of the Goodness of God. This site belongs to God. I want it to be led by The Holy Spirit in everything. For God the Father and His Son Jesus/Yeshua, my Messiah and the Holy Spirit, my mentor are in charge of it.
The poetry part of this website started out over 13 years ago when I asked God to help me express what He had done for me and to guide me in writing the poetry as a means to express, confess and offer hope to others.
In 2007, a prophet told me I had a gift of revelation of national dangers and that I would receive a message in the future and to tell everyone, even if they thought I was paranoid. Well, there has been very URGENT messages he has revealed since that time. This site now is used to get those trumpet messages out and to still share the poetry as the testimony of His love, wisdom, healing power, mercy, holiness, and grace. God has the perfect plan but we must put our trust in him first in all things.
(I am in the process of adding the amazing things God did in providing supernaturlly in the (homeless-wilderness) journey and what he taught me so I could encourage and share with others for all may find themselves there very soon. (Find this blog at servantJudylea.simplesite.com)
God took a very selfish prideful person and gave her/me freedom. He taught me what true love is and led me out of a world of deception, darkness, selfishness and pain, into light and wholeness. Oh! His mercy is so AMAZING! One of the worst pains was me resisting telling myself the truth in my thoughts and motives that the Lord was bringing up so he could heal me. Another pain was the spiritual warfare I would go through due to open doors to the enemy, through sin, ignorance and pride.
*Below is a quick timeline of my growth in relationship with Christ; but does not include major events like marriage and precious children.
God gave me 2 precious children and wisdom and strength as single parent 15 years.
* I fell in love with Jesus as a kid through a movie of Jesus
* Accepted Christ as my savior and gave my life fully to Him 1986
* Jehovah Witness Cult 86-98
* Truly surrendered while JW in 1993 and allowed my Father through Christ to begin Healing Journey
* God walked me out of JW (mind set) sometime after disfellowshipped for worldly behavior/sexual sin
*Still loving my God and talking to HIM every day but still living in sin (lots of spiritual warfare)
* Holy Spirit Baptism in 2002 and walk out of sin and continue my personal relationship
*2007 prophet said I have gift of revelation of national danger and would receive message in future
and tell everyone even if they think I'm paranoid
*2009 Watchman awakening and revelation of one world order, Obama as beast in Bible, Fall of Babylon and currency/collapse
America (learn later America is daughter of Babylon) God revealed the origin of America is sorcery, Freemasons/skull and bones
caring out satins agenda, mark of the beast in health care bill, h1n1 vaccine depopulation and chip agenda (they didn't carry out then)
judgement on the systems of Satan
*2012 my 10 year old son received word and warning "Time to leave California" and The Lord has set me up with supernatural
appointments ever-since to get the warning out
* The Lord showed me how the ministries all over the world are coming together by the anti-Christ system in the disguise of unity and has
revealed "angel of light" organizations that are all a part of this evil plan.
*2014 God took me on journey setting me up with daily appointments (led by the Holy Spirit) to share with individuals
from Florida, California, New York, word of warning "time to get off coastlands and big cities"
*2015 God is saying HE IS COMING AND TO PROCLAIM HIS COMING AND THAT THE BRIDE MUST BE READY!
AND JUDGEMENT IS HERE ON AMERICA! REPENT AND BELIEVE THE GOOD NEWS OF HIS SALVATION AND KINGDOM!
*Here are some of the main things that Christ healed me from, and it doesn’t include some of the physical!
IN CHRIST...I AM AN OVERCOMER!
* SIN AND DEATH BY THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB!
* POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER
* A 25 YEAR IMBALLANCE OF PREMENSTRAL DISPHORIC DISORDER
* ANXIETY DISORDER
* SEVERE DEPRESSION
* LOVE ADDICTION
* CO-DEPENDENCY
* RAGE & ANGER
* EFFECTS OF ABUSE
* LOW SELF ESTEEM
* RELIGIOUS SPIRIT
* EFFECTS OF ERROR THROUGH A CULT
* PRIDE AND IGNORANCE
* CRYTICAL SPIRIT
* VICTIM MENTALITY
* FEAR OF MAN
* REJECTION
* DISFUNCTIONAL COMMUNICATION
* DISFUNCTIONAL RELATIONSHIPS...and more....
THANK YOU MY AWESOME FATHER IN HEAVEN FOR RECONCILING ME TO YOU THROUGH YOUR SON AND MY KING,
MESSIAH, LORD AND SAVIOR. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND AM SO GRATEFUL. I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU FACE TO FACE!
I AM OVERWHELMED WITH YOUR BEUATY, MAJESY, MERCY, LOVE, POWER, JUSTICE, LOYALTY AND FAITHFULLNESS.
FOR YOU ARE WORTHY TO BE PRAISED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A Few Poems directly related with my Testimony:
MASK by judylea
I use to present to others
whom I thought they wanted to see
It never crossed my mind
it was OK to be me
I thought I'd have to be perfect
Special in every way
In order for others to love me
In order for others to stay
Little did I know
I fulfilled my own prophesy
The more falsehood I'd show
The more they couldn't get close to me
Then I began to understand
I had to let myself out
to let others in
The many secrets I carried
I asked God help me reveal
The more I showed my true self
The more alive I would feel
I saw that I was loved
just for being me
It was freeing to be real
It was joyful to be free
JudyLea copyright 2003
About the poem: I spent much of my life behind a mask of who I thought I was suppose be.
Now, in beingHONEST with myself and others, even in times of weakness, is much more
attractive to others and freeing to myself. I have found that being real and allowing myself
to be human is a beautiful thing! Thank you Jesus for the freedom!
Ephesians 4:15 "Instead, we will speak the truth in love, growing in every way more and
more like Christ, who is the head of his body, the church.
John 8:32 "And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."
EFFECTS OF TELEVISION - My Testimony by judylea
Part I - False Reality
I thought the world was my friend, it's all I really knew
It was my reality I would contend, as I viewed it through my TV Tube
It told me what's important and what my goals in life should be
It told me how to look and act, how to get love … get free
The world's message was that happiness could only be found outside of me
In a perfect face and body, in success or a certain way to be
According to the sexy model images, I certainly didn't measure up
There was a lot of work to do, to become that someone who could be loved
I knew in order for another to desire me, I had to be perfect, successful and smart
I knew in order for others to like me, I had to be someone else in my heart
I set out on a course of perfection with the world as my guide
Moving farther and farther from the truth and denying the true me inside
All I did was run to nowhere, my life was bound with chains
I believed the lies; my reality, my heart was filled with pain
Other than the pain, my emotions were buried - I could no longer feel
I had shut out my true self - I didn't know what was real
A couple of goals I had obtained, but they put me deeper in bondage and deeper in pain
For all it did was confirm my insecurity, "They don't love me for me" (for that part was hidden)
They only love what they see
Part II - True Reality Revealed
I started studying this old book inspired by someone special
It told me I was loved and the love was unconditional
It told me that there was a small road that the large road wouldn't see
It said the masses were being lied to and the small road would set me free
It said Love is what connects us all through the light of Christ's Blood Stain
It told of the two realities, Love verses fear and pain
Although there was such a freedom, God's Word did reveal
I was still hiding behind years of deception that my heart still thought was real
I thought I was Christian, but I hadn't died to my own will
I gave all my power to my partner and lived and internal Hell
Then I changed the way I prayed, answers began to show
I finally began to trust…I finally did let go
God was now able to do a work in me
I began telling the truth and the truth it set me free
I began to acknowledge my very low self-worth.
I began revealing secrets I held on to since birth
The more truth I would tell, the more alive I would feel
I found my true-self and true-beauty on the road to being real
JudyLea Johnson copyright 2003
"Turn my eyes from worthless things, and give me life through your word." Psalm 119:37
The god of this age (satan) has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. 2 Corinthians 4:4 (NLT)
2 Corinthians 4:4
You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father's desire. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies.
John 8:44
"And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect will of God." Roman 12:2
All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness,
2 Timothy 3:16(NLT)
"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.
Matthew 7:13
"Fearing people is a dangerous trap but to trust the Lord means safety." Proverbs 29:25
For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.
Ephesians 6:12
The Truth will set you Free" John 8:32
"For God so LOVED the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16
(This poem was written and dedicated to a Womens Shelter my children and I resided in several months)
Note: I dedicate it now to my best friend, who always has my back. JESUS I love you and trust you!
"My Hiding Place" by judylea
I'm staying in a christian shelter
An umbrella in the rain.
Hiding under an eagles wings,
While healing from my pain.
Battered women and children
All bruises you can not see
Hearts in need of mending
Souls to be saved and freed
Everyone has their story;
No two are the same
Some came while seeking God's Glory;
Others hardly knew his name
As for me...I had grown weary
I fell upon my face
God took my hand and said,
"I'll help you"
as he led me to "His Hiding Place."
JudyLea Copyright 2006
"You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance."
Psalm 32:7
FORGIVENESS HEALS by judylea
I use to think my forgiveness
Certain ones didn't deserve
By holding back his act of love
I was the one most hurt
To contain an anger
Resentment hurt or shame
It turns a sickness inward
Killing love with blame
I felt daggers in my heart
In my head and chest
I repeated hurtful images
I wouldn't let error rest
My whole body was taking ill
and...my joy ran dry
My face grew hard and meaner still
...my spirit it did die
Once I made the choice to love
To everyone forgive
I began my healing
I began to LIVE
Copyright 2003 JudyLea
"Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other,
just as God in Christ also has forgiven you." Ephesians 4:31-32
ABUSE AND THE ANSWER by judylea
When a child receives a message
That is distorted or a lie
He doesn't know any better than
To accept it with a sigh
He grows up feeling less than
Worthless at the core
Stupid, ugly, a failure,
Beliefs he can't ignore
So he begins to lie to himself
Pretending those beliefs arn't’t there
He hides behind a bottle, drugs, gangs, despair
He may not be so obvious
He may look perfect to himself and you
As he runs toward proving
None of these things are true
The failure may be fighting
To become a very successful man
The ugly woman with plastic surgery
Beautifying every way she can
The dumb one spends lifetime learning
So he can prove he's really smart
But with all his degrees and awards
He's still dumb in his heart
By the way the ugly woman
Was really never ugly at all
But, she spent a lifetime making sure
She was the beauty of the ball
For in her mind if she were not the best
She couldn't be loved at all
Do these people sound familiar?
Could they be You or me?
Ask God to reveal the truth and
The truth will set you free
Are you tired of all the pain running to get nowhere?
Are you still searching for your true love?
Are you running scared?
These lies are embedded in our souls
To keep us off God's course
For GOD IS LOVE and these lies are not
The father of the lie is their source
These lies that were planted early
Are very real to me and you
Only we are ignorant to their existence
But to our inner world they are true
They affect our very life and every thing we do
It certainly will take courage to face the hurt
We've been trying so hard to avoid
But with faith in Gods Loving healing hand
Freedom will be enjoyed
Pray your fears and insecurities
Be revealed to you
With Gods Holy Spirit
He'll help you see it through
Let the hurt come and go
When you see your darker side
Don't worry Jesus paid the price
So you don't have to hide
You then will feel light with love
After releasing the heavy burden
It takes a lot of energy
To keep a secret hidden
Love your self unconditionally
Lest you be a failure, stupid, short, fat, or tall
For if you love yourself with these things
You will find you're none of these things at all
For these are the devil's lies,judgments,
Thoughts that exist only with in your mind
Blocking out loving energy
Blocking out the divine
In truth you are Gods precious child
And he delights in you
He loves you just because you are
Not for what you do
So love and forgive yourself completely
And your enemies too
SEE GOD'S LOVE IN EVERYONE
SEE GOD'S LOVE IN YOU
JudLea copyright 2004
God makes all things new! (Revelation 21:5)
A SPECIAL NOTE: I was the ugly girl, the stupid girl, and the failure. Nobody knew it though, because I was one who covered it well. God's Holy Spirit has healed so much in me and is continuing to do so, and has truly changed who I am. My prayer for you is that you truly know who you are in Christ. If you are reading this right now, I don't believe it is by accident, and if you are ready for God to heal and touch you in a big way, my prayer is that you don't try to do it alone. Although the healing journey and developing a personal relationship with your creator, is on the inside of you, you still need to have safe support. (Matthew 18:20) God wants you to start your healing process and begin a personal relationship with Him. --God's Word says that Satan is a liar and was cast to the earth and is deceiving the world.(Rev.12:9)If you have a secret negative thought or belief; it is a lie. No one can take away Jesus' love from you. (Romans 8:35) Our Father God Jehovah, wants us to seek Him, His Word and Living Word, in truth, and heal our inner wounds, therefore, be transformed. (Romans 12:2) But, we need the Healer, God's Holy Spirit will give us strength through the healing journey.(Eph 3:16) (Glad I finally got that one) Every soul needs to uncover and awaken to Christs Love, Light and Power within, "beneath the unexcavated rubble." If there is anyone who has something on their heart that they would like to share, please leave your thoughts and email address with me and I will write you back. God wants you healed and whole and loves you beyond what you could ever comprehend.
COMPLETE IN MY HEAVENLY HUSBAND by judylea
(I wrote this while staying in a battered women's shelter)
Dearest My Most precious friend, my provider
Protector and committed husband,
I trust that you love me when I’m silly
And that you’re laughing too
And that your arms are open wide
When I cry and run to you
You’ve never once lied to me
And I know you never will
You love me unconditionally
And meet me when I’m still
You melt my heart from ice to tears
Holding me through the pain
Exposing my love, once covered with fear
You shelter me from the rain
When others have pulled away
And gone to other places
You promised you’d always stay
You have…and filled the empty spaces
My husband you are the highest-
Over all the Universe
Yet, you cry and laugh with me
And intimately converse
I respect your Awesome Wisdom
Your Holiness and Power
No one measures up to you
Yet, I have you, every-minute of every-hour
In talking with you, I find myself
And I’m able to forgive-
My daily imperfections and others transgressions
In the troubled world I live
I love how you encourage me
And give strength to my inner man
How you bring me truth in everything
And support me in being all I can
I love how you’ll take the load
And lift it off my shoulders
How you sing a soothing melody
When life grows ever colder
I love how I can count on you
Your faithfulness sublime
How you shower me with many gifts
And there always just in time
You never try hurt me
Or make me feel low or small
You lovingly lead and guide me
In growing whole and growing tall
Oh, forgive me my heavenly husband
For the times I’ve pulled away
How hurt it must of made you feel
To not have my trust that day
I’m so sorry for leaving you
To run to an earthly man
Expecting him to fill in me
Only what you can.
I love you Always and Forever,
In Jesus Precious Name, Amen
JudyLea (c)copyright 2005
NOTE: . For God's word says, "for your Creator will be your husband. The Lord Almighty is his name!
He is your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel, the God of all the earth. For the Lord has called you back
from your grief--as though your were a young wife abandoned by her husband," says your God" Isaiah 54:5,6
