How do you expect to love me forever when you can't love me now?
I am not sure there is anything left to fix, at least I wouldn't know how
I have been very open about what I need from you
I beg, I plead, I am vocal, I express; what more am I to do?
You are so good at attacking me with words that dig deep
A deep stab in the heart and it just feels good to you that you got me
You don't care to think about what you say or how it is said
Maybe it would help you if it was something that you read
You call me a bad mom because we stay up and argue and maybe they hear
Just those words alone cause a deep wound in my heart with fear
I fought so hard for them that maybe it was a mistake they came back home
Am I really a bad mom? Should I have just left it all alone?
Are my boys living a nightmare that I could have made go away?
Will they grow up with the memory of a mother they would rather not have had stay?
Am I growing to be like my mother that I despise?
The mother who abused me and filled my head with lies?
You tell me if it wasn't for them you would have left long before now
My heart hurt so much from your words yet you don't understand how?
I cant seem to do anything right by you, when all I do is express how I feel
Unfortunately I am not one to keep my feelings inside and pretend they are not real
I shouldn't feel bad or be afraid to express my feeling to the man I want to be with forever
I should have confidence in knowing whatever comes our way we can get through together
I don't say hurtful things because I don't want to cause that life long pain
Yet you hurt me so easily with the words that you say
All I have ever asked for was a sincere apology
But I am not worth even that, so why marry me?
All I have ever asked from you was to put in an effort to try
If I cannot get even that, I feel like all we have left is good-bye.
