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In The Sanctuary Of My Head

The Broken-Winged Birds and People (re-edited 4/5/2323 3:03PM PST) (re-edited 11:14am PST 2/23/2023)

The Hell Of Winter (re-edited 4:27pm PST 3/9/2023)

My Grey Haired Love...La La Lullaby , La La Lullaby My Love

THE HEART IS AN ORGAN ON FIRE



When Mr. Bemish Lost His Last Good Pair of Glasses

Kathy Brown Kathy Brown

Something Not Quite Right About Here (Vortex) re-edited 1/26/2023

THE COOL TILES BENEATH MY FEET REMIND ME

The Way Of The Crow

DO YOU TURN THE LIGHTS SO YOU CAN SLEEP?

The Springtime Shadows Play Games Upon The Wall

CHRONICLER OF DREAMS

YET ANOTHER ANTI-POETRY POEM ( re-edited 11/2/2022)

You Do As You Please 8/17/2005 found poem, readjusted 6/20/22

HERE WE SIT AT OUR TABLE 2/19/2022

Much Better Than This ( A Conversation With The Universe)

The Straight Story (What Happens When The Writer Inserts You Into Her Story)

THE TIDE CALLED LONELINESS

A Girl Always Leaning Forward Looking for A Breeze

Entanglements

Have You Ever... (DECEMBER 4/2021)

Appetites

How I Still Love You

The Smile Which Eludes @

He Says To Me, I Think Too Much (and hence dream too much as well)

When You Learn Who You Really Are And What Is...

Anti-Poem Number Three 8/2/2022 Or, A Poem Your Proper Mother Wouldn't Write

Breathing On My Own

A Girl Is More Than a Beautiful Box re-edited 10:15pm PST 1/31/22

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS ANYWAY AND INSTEAD

Talk To Me In The Dark 7/8/2022

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What Truth There Is When You See It  (Maybe I'm A Man...)


fever dreams
not the extremes
the reversals of reality
but in fact
hidden truths
how I became
was transformed into
my middle brother's son
how I came back to visit and
I became his twin youth
with mutton chop sideburns
and Salvador Dalian stache
slender and reedy with adventure and cash
how
my male siblings stood speechless
at last I was peerless
and worth my salt
living up to my due
becoming a man
or being born that way
being what I ought to do

they no longer saw my faults
they were gone in that instant

I asked then, of my dear partner
of 20 some years
what could this mean
could he read my dreams
was this something to fear
he honestly answered
it means
you, as a sister, don't matter
its only when you became a man
you were validated
it was only then that they
saw who you were
not as you are
but for what they understand...
that's why you grew sideburns
and that Salvadorian twirl

you will only get validation in your family
if you're a man

if Karl Jung were alive today
I'm certain my partner would have
taken away
most of his business
how he'd thrive and flourish
off his insight

what truth there is
now
that I have seen it.



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Melissa A Howells
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4:51pm PST January 1, 2018
time and date stamped.
based upon a dream from last night





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