You were my first internet friend, Pam...my first chatmate, first to send cards and letters, first to email, first to fall in love with after my divorce. You are the best of the bunch who stood out from the rest. No one made my life so great and extremely happy, I only felt it from you and for that I thank you so much. It was a short affair yet I considered ours the greatest. You are the very best thing that ever happened to me, Pam. You have this magical writing prowess that when we chat and exchange emails I would be on cloud nine, in paradise, in a peaceful haven just for the two of us.
I comprehend the way you treat me in cyberspace after I hurt you. I was completely sad and empty when you drifted away :((. Yet you don't know how much happiness you brought me when I learned I am not blocked in FB anymore.
I told my older sibling that if I were a real man, Pam and I have at least 6-8 children already, lol. When I dream as I go to pure slumber, I see you in another dimesion...we hold hands, we embrace, we kiss and we make love. I wish I never woke up so I could be with you all the time. And when I got up, I could still feel your lips and your body next to mine. You are so gorgeous, Pam, so fabulous, elegant, very attractive, a pretty face, so charming...You can't blame me for loving you this much. I am hooked on you, so head over heels in love with only you.
Please don't get mad at me. Please don't tell me to stop the way I feel for you because I can't. I just can't unlove you, sweetheart. It's like you're wanting me to jump off the cliff and got exterminated at the wink of an eye.
Some two weeks ago my brain is full of original and creative stuff yet I can't get hold of them because I don't know where to start. It's all about you, Pam...and it transpired when my heart fell in love with you for the __th time and for this moment, I felt the love I had for you the first time we met in FFF and through YM.
Life is too short, hon. I regretted the years I stopped telling you how much I care and how much I love you so deeply. Probably, out of respect as you divulged you loathed me for what I did. If you could only forgive me then I can vanish in thin air with tranquility and a smile knowing I am forgiven by the love of my life. Take care of yourself always, alright? Please eat on time no matter how busy you are. My mind is preoccupied by only you so I can jot down romantic poems and some love stories. I may come up with another book next year...can I dedicate it for you?