I summon every ounce of courage I possess
Telling those who ask that I'm fine, there
Is, after all, no earthly reason that my heart
Should explode from my chest, no reason
To feel as if my lungs will not except
Another breath, no reason to be in such
Agony, I would welcome the death train
I excuse myself politely from the reception, my
Body going numb, heart's pounding like a war
Drum, you look a little pale, someone says, I'm
Fine, just need a little fresh air, I escape into
The darkness of the night, falling onto a step
I crawl under a bush, my head is on fire, now
Alone, I can die in the absence of prying eyes
My clothes are drenched in a cold sweat
I know the end is so near, I release an
Ocean of tears, there's no one to hide
From now, I bare my soul to God, asking
His forgiveness of my sins, I relinquish
My soul to it's maker and pray my passage
Come swiftly, ending this excruciating pain
I close my eye's, waiting for unconsciousness
To swallow me, certain every heart beat is my
Last, seconds turn into minutes, my heart begins
To slow, the feeling comes back into my body
I"m able to take some deep breaths, why have
I not died ? surely this couldn't have been
Another panic attack, or was it ...
Panic attacks can be terrifying, mimicking strokes, heart attacks
or other acute symptoms may occur, there is help for this
disorder, if you or someone you know is suffering from any of
these symptoms and your doctor has ruled out any physical reason
ask him [or] her to give you a referral to see a counselor, I've also
found my faith in God and prayer, helps tremendously during
these episodes.
