The words ... “THEY DON’T CARE”, are ringing in my ears!
Pain in my heart - blood stained tears!
People I trusted, who I thought had my back!
What was I thinking? I must have been whacked!
I have never been in a darker spot!
I am physically on my knees!
But why is it that, not one of you, can hear my desperate pleas!
I feel so empty, abandoned, rejected, and confused!
Hearing your doubt and contradicting views!
I am tired trying to prove myself,
Why would I lie about my health?
I would have taken a bullet for each and everyone of you!
Yet, I get sick ... and this is what you do?
My heart is heavy,
I sit here feeling numb!
Re-playing over our conversations,
Questioning what I have done?
When did I ever give you cause to question what I say?
I am fiercely loyal always!
I considered my friends to be my family!
You were all I had...
But how could the people I loved the most in this world, make me feel so sad!
You question who I am? The very essence of me? You have stamped on my heart, but you won’t break me!
I see you now!
So much clearer than before!
My heart is now protected behind 4 reinforced walls!
You once reached inside me to squeeze the life out of my heart!
But my resilience was the defibrillator that re-started my heart!
I have mourned the loss of who I thought you were... you are now officially dust!
A person who clearly doesn’t care for me, One I can no longer trust!
Written by © Wendy Roberts 14-09-2018