Exposing emotional scars...
A vulnerability creeps in!
My heart clicks on to autopilot from the prison, within which it’s in!
‘Fight or Flight’ mode is triggered...
Thoughts racing through my mind..
Assessing the situation...
Is a process of ‘self preservation’.
Excitement/anxiety.. Voices in my head..
A conflict between spontaneity & rationality... Processing what’s been said!
The exchange of whether to trust!
Is a complicated web...
The spider will trap... wrap... & suffocate it’s prey... and often wait until it’s dead!
Analogy of ‘Letting you in’:
The risk feels like a thrashing cable..
That’s sparking on the floor..
If I get too close I could be electrocuted,
But I can’t leave it thrashing on the floor!!
I know that to take a risk is to ‘live’.. and to feel the adrenaline rushing in!!
But, I am afraid ..., like when a bungee cord snaps... Those feelings will fly back in!!
The internal conflict of ‘Letting you in’ ...
Written by © Wendy Roberts 11-11-2018
(Inspired by Danny)