Losing grip once more on reality
Trying to fight off the darkening sky
Looking deep into my own refection
Not understand why each day I try?
Those I thought had loved me…?
Have proved they have none at all
All have been watching and waiting
To watch me crumble and fall.
I have tried so hard to please them
But my crimes must be too much…?
No support, no love, no comfort…
No warmth nor loving touch.
I have to rebuild my life with meaning
I feel drained from all that I am
So I have to forget my past life forever
Find love wherever I can.
No more connections that will only just hurt me
I have to push them out of my mind
Remove all their pictures and memories
To all that once was… now blind.
Dedicated to my three daughters who have made me feel worthless.
who have taken from me all the goodness that I once had.
I will rebuild my life without all of you...
I now know I do not need what I can never have... Loving children.