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They Spurned the Vaccine. Now They Want You to Know They Regret It.
Peoplewho once rejected the vaccine or simply waited too long are now grappling with the consequences, often in raw, public ways.
GlenArnell, right, and Mindy Greene visited her husband, Russ Greene, at Utah Valley Specialty Hospital. Mr. Greene was hospitalized with complications from Covid-19 after choosing not to receive a vaccination for the virus.Credit...Kim Raff for The New York Times
By Jack Healy July 30, 2021Updated 7:26 p.m. ET
PROVO,Utah As Mindy Greene spent another day in the Covid intensive care unit, listening to the whirring machines that now breathed for her 42-year-old husband, Russ, she opened her phone and tapped out a message.
"We did not get the vaccine," she wrote on Facebook. "I read all kinds of things about the vaccine and it scared me. So I made the decision and prayed about it and got theimpression that we would be ok."
They were not.
Herhusband, the father to their four children, was now hovering between life and death, tentacles of tubes spilling from his body. The patient in the room next to her husband's had died hours earlier. That day, July13, Ms. Greene decided to add her voice to an unlikely group of people speaking out in the polarized national debate over vaccination: the remorseful.
"If I had the information I have today we would have gotten vaccinated," Ms. Greene wrote. Come what may, she hit "send."
Amida resurgence of coronavirus infections and deaths, some people who oncerejected the vaccines or simply waited too long are now grappling with the consequences, often in raw, public ways. A number are speaking from hospital beds, at funerals and in obituaries about their regrets, about the pain of enduring the virus and watching unvaccinated family members die gasping for breath.
"Ihave such incredible guilt," Ms. Greene said one morning as she sat in the fourth-floor lobby outside the I.C.U. at Utah Valley Hospital in Provo, which looks out to the mountains where her family once went hiking and four-wheeling. "I blame myself still. Every day."
Therecent surge of infections and hospitalizations among unvaccinated people has brought the grim realities of Covid-19 crashing home for manywho thought they had skirted the pandemic. But now, with anger and fatigue piled up on all sides, the question is whether their stories canactually change any minds.
Some people hospitalized with the virus still vow not to get vaccinated, and surveyssuggest that a majority of unvaccinated Americans are not budging. Doctors in Covid units say some patients still refuse to believe they are infected with anything beyond the flu.
"Wehave people in the I.C.U. with Covid who are denying they have Covid," said Dr. Matthew Sperry, a pulmonary critical care physician who has been treating Mr. Greene. "It doesn't matter what we say."
Covid hospitalizations in Utah have risen 35 percentover the past two weeks, and Dr. Sperry said intensive care units across the 24-hospital system where he works are 98 percent fu
Still,some hospitals swamped with patients in largely conservative, unvaccinated swaths of the country have begun to recruit Covid survivorsas public health messengers of last resort. The hope is that onetime skeptics might just persuade others who dismissed vaccination campaigns led by President Biden, Dr. Anthony S. Fauci and armies of local doctorsand health workers.
Theirs are ScaredStraight stories for a pandemic that has thrived on misinformation, fear and hardened partisan divisions over whether or not to get vaccinated.
"People are creating news from their hospital beds, from the wards," said Rebecca Weintraub, an assistant professor of global health and social medicine at Harvard Medical School. "It's the accessibility of the message: I didn't protect my own family. Let me help you protect yours.'"
In Springfield, Mo., where coronavirus cases spiked this summer, Russell Taylor satin a hospital gown, an oxygen cannula draped across his face, to offer apro-vaccine testimonial in a hospital video. "I don't see how I could not get it now," he said.
A Texas man who underwent a double-lung transplant after contracting the virus made a plea on local television for others to get vaccinated.
And in a shaking voice, a hospital-clinic administrator in rural Utah describedhow she had been pummeled by double pneumonia and sepsis after choosingnot to get vaccinated. The woman, Stormy, said it had taken weeks to summon the nerve to speak out in a video posted by her local health department. She did so using only her first name because she worried that Covid deniers would say she was making it all up.
"Iabsolutely was fearful of the negative aspects that could come from it," she said in an interview this week. "I was part of a problem that Iwas trying to avoid."
Some people whowere quick to embrace the vaccines are now choosing to speak out about family members who did not. It was a role Kimberle Jones never wanted, but one she embraced after her daughter, Erica Thompson, 37, a mother from St. Louis, died on July 4, nearly three months after she had what she thought was a bad asthma attack.
"Iwant to be a voice for her," said Ms. Jones, who got vaccinated as soonas she was able to. "I really think my daughter would want me to say, Go get vaccinated.'"
It was advice Ms. Thompson like some 39 percent of American adults did not heed.
Hermother said Ms. Thompson had been leery of how quickly the Moderna and Pfizer-BioNTech vaccines had rolled out the culmination of decades of scientific research. She also believed that the government-run campaign was a plot against Black people like her, according to her mother. Vaccination rates for Black and Hispanic Americans lag behind the white population, a gap that researchers attribute to distrust rooted in a history of medical discrimination and a lack of access and outreach.
Afterscraping by making $10 an hour at call-center jobs, Ms. Thompson had recently found a dream job doing medical coding. She went to the hospital coughing and struggling to breathe in mid-May and was on a ventilator within days. Ms. Jones said she sang "Beat It" as her daughter was sedated and promised to be there when she woke.
"Her last words to me were, Mama I can't breathe,'" Ms. Jones said.
InUtah, Ms. Greene said her husband had left the family's vaccination decisions in her hands. She initially planned to get the shot as soon asher next-door neighbor, a physician, got his.
Butshe had concerns about the vaccines, and found plenty of reasons to hesitate when she scrolled through social media or talked with anti-vaccine friends. "You need to watch this," one wrote to her.
Clickingon a few links took her down a rabbit hole of conspiracy theories touted by anti-vaccine lawyers and YouTubers, and videos in which anti-vaccine doctors and nurses decried the Covid-19 shots as "bioweapons."
Covid crashed into the family's world in late June when their two oldest sons brought the virushome from a church camp where nine boys got infected. The virus swept through the family. Then came the day that Mr. Greene, a hunter who hiked across mountains, had to be rushed to the hospital when his oxygenlevels cratered.
Now,they measure time in "Covid days." Ms. Greene wakes up dry heaving manymornings. Her four children ages 8 to 18 stay home while she visitsthe hospital, unable to tell their dad about dance class or smashing a hit deep into the outfield during a baseball game.
Thereare uncertain months ahead as doctors try to repair Mr. Greene's damaged lungs and wean him off a ventilator. He was briefly transferred from the hospital to a long-term acute care center last week, a hopeful moment. But doctors found a hole in his lungs, and he was rushed back into the intensive care unit.
"I will always regret that I listened to the misinformation being put out there," Ms. Greene said. "They're creating fear."
Evenafter Mr. Greene was put on a ventilator in early July, vaccine skeptics Ms. Greene knew texted her links to misinformation about fertility and hidden vaccine deaths. They sent her boxes of a horse medicine falsely touted as a Covid cure. A business associate of her husband made the case against vaccination while he visited Ms. Greene inthe I.C.U. lobby.
Health experts and scientific studies have shown the vaccines are overwhelmingly safe and effective and are the best weapon against infectious new variants of thecoronavirus.
Before Covid, the family's life was anchored by their faith and community in the Church ofJesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Now, church friends and neighbors bring dinners by the house and send updates to the congregation about Mr. Greene.
Ms. Greene begins her hospital visits with a spiritual reading and ends each night by gathering their children Hunter, 18; Easton, 15; Betty, 13; and Rushton, 8 to talk about their father and the prayers he needs.
Herviews shifted as the virus ravaged her husband's body and doctors put him on a ventilator. They shifted as she talked with doctors and nurses about the unvaccinated patients pouring into hospitals and sat outside the I.C.U., listening to life-flight helicopters arrive. Ms. Greene saidshe had made an appointment to get her children vaccinated
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