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Lost Faith
Listening to '90s music
takes me back in time.
To my first abuser
(after my father.)
I feel hot & my hands clench.
What did I ever do wrong?
My only mistake was trusting him
& feeling his pain.
Feels like I'm tripping
and falling through stars.
I can't breathe.
And I must remind myself:
I did nothing wrong.
Tears roll down my face &
my heart races.
I hear his voice
yelling at me.
Calling me
every name in the book.
When I did nothing wrong.
Blow it off,
I tell my younger self.
It wasn't me;
it was him.
I was already in pain.
But he's the one
who broke me.
He's the reason why
two decades later,
I'm still gluing
& duct-taping
my life back together.
He's the reason
why I lost all faith
and wanted to die.
copyright 2021
by Insomnia
(AJ Kline Robinson)
written October 3, 2021
12:09 a.m.
Listening to '90s music
takes me back in time.
To my first abuser
(after my father.)
I feel hot & my hands clench.
What did I ever do wrong?
My only mistake was trusting him
& feeling his pain.
Feels like I'm tripping
and falling through stars.
I can't breathe.
And I must remind myself:
I did nothing wrong.
Tears roll down my face &
my heart races.
I hear his voice
yelling at me.
Calling me
every name in the book.
When I did nothing wrong.
Blow it off,
I tell my younger self.
It wasn't me;
it was him.
I was already in pain.
But he's the one
who broke me.
He's the reason why
two decades later,
I'm still gluing
& duct-taping
my life back together.
He's the reason
why I lost all faith
and wanted to die.
copyright 2021
by Insomnia
(AJ Kline Robinson)
written October 3, 2021
12:09 a.m.