My father
I have made many mistakes and errors
made decisions that I believed were all true
walked pathways I thought would lead me to heaven
but they all took me further from you.
I did not realise the void was growing wider
there was just so much that I needed to do
searching for answers had become my everything
but it only took me further from the truth.
I blamed you for reasons that I have since learned were tainted
blamed you for all of my shame
I found no reasons to visit your graveside…
I blamed you for bearing your name.
These words I write now are my way to say sorry
so the whole world can see I was wrong
now so many years after your passing
I to remember you singing loud your songs.
I will never know if you would forgive me
this will be my cross that sadly I’ll bear
wishing I had known the truth in my own mind
so I could have shown you how much I could care.
For you Dad
