My demise
Sitting here contemplating my own demise
struggling to put air in my lungs
remembering so many things that life has passed by
remembering when I was young…
Many regrets… so much time was wasted
searching for that elusive life’s dream
I wish I could have understood the road I was walking
...to have understood all the things I had seen.
My deepest regret is the loss of my children
the three things I have treasured most dear
I had tried so very hard from distance to be a father
but the days just slipped into years.
Having failed at so many things where others succeed
relationships always got lost in the haze
now having lived alone and been alone for so very long
I have no one but me I can blame.
So sitting here wondering if tomorrow will come?
knowing I don’t care what the answer may be?
I do wonder if life could have been better…
if I was born someone else… rather that me?
Just my Emphysema playing up
Still good….
