It's not like I don't give masculines a fair chance to prove their worth
They consistently let me down
I end up becoming the man myself
My brain wired its self to know I don't need a hero
I have loved myself long enough
I still wanted you to be the one I share my life with
Only I wanted a gentleman not a little boy
The hero to me is one who is consistent in being there for me
Not constantly feeling inspired by me and then comparing me to other women
My Upbringing is different!
When I lost a piece of myself I went in search of love
Nobody compared to that or what I could do for me
See I need you in many ways, but when you take a backseat I need to be the woman
I also need to be the man who I can rely on
Everyone celebrates fathers day and I stand here praying for him because he taught me everything I need to know
I lost some of this on the way because a lack of empathy was riddled into our lives when he left
So I walked away and stayed on my own
Nobody quite understood but those who are my true companions and friends
They understand me and my life and our relationships get stronger and stronger
No amount of separation or hatred or evil can part the connections God had blessed me because losing my first group was out of my control
As a child I stayed quite, but cried coldly and quietly to myself
Knowing I'd be ridiculed had those tears come out alone
Eventually as I got older my heart begun to soften
I began to cry anywhere and everywhere
I realised I was different and I had raw emotions and rare kindness
Nobody understood, but only my dad would have
Eventually I had to pull this all together and gain my strength back and I did, but I know who I am
A woman who won't tolerate cr*p and admires fine conversation and art
I love animals and admire nature, I absolutely love poetry and a little sport
I'm just who my dad was and I am only in search of the true life partner
The hero is the one who doesn't allow for the woman to suffer
Who sees her truth and cracks in her armour and still admires her
He still loves her even in separation and he doesn't control a situation he creates opportunity
He misses her when she is not showing up, he sees her for who she really is
She in return will love him and enjoy him for bringing out her feminine side
This is who I'm falling in love with
Perhaps I'm falling in love with myself and I'm destined to be single forever
Or maybe some weird air will fill the United Kingdom and we will get our hero's back
The ones who aren't glued to their phones and the chest freeze and those consoles they keep playing