There's always something
A barrier or a fork in the road
Too desperate and I turn away
Or too ignorant and I walk away
Only to find he wants to talk again
My heart isn't a band
It's not made to stretch or be pulled like strings
Only a musician can create harmony and balance by the art of pulling an instrument
I'm not an instrument
I won't sit in your lap and let you play chords
I'll only listen to what you have to say and walk away
I'm content with my life and the things I want I know I'll get to them at the right time
Even to make music the musician takes his time and carefully tunes his instrument and picks at the strings carefully
He uses passion, logic and carefully selects which parts go together and which parts do not
Hoping in some months time that people love what he created
I longed for a best friend and companion at one time
Only my heart has been badly hurt and damaged by multiple people
Lots of ghosts, liars, deceivers and two major heart breaks
I remember just sitting in my room and tears will fill up my sheets
No matter where I was I ran to a safe place and I cried
Just like a musician will let out his anger in a song by strumming it out
I knew Only to cry and release my heart from all this pain
I want to begin again, but when I don't see a connection or an intro to begin a journey just like a musician
It makes me less interested because I already know by my intuition what each man wants
My gut knows when something is off and I turn away
My hurt, humiliation and heart breaks taught me a lot
They made me guarded, but I'm becoming more open to listen
Especially if there is harmony or balance
If there is nothing for me to build on I will walk away
There's no point hurting myself or leading someone on
I might never fall in love because I had this idea from a teenager and I still view this as love
I want us to be best friends and enjoy spontaneous adventures together no matter what
If I can't see this I won't bother