Im not who you want
I don't have that model look
I don't have a perfect body
Or that flawless look
Or that perfect skin
Why you looked my way I'd never know
I'd never crack that darn mystery
I no longer have perfect eyes
My teeth were never perfect to begin with
They had a journey
We had a journey a very painful one
So did my body and it will encounter more pain
You're mysterious and strange
It kind of creeped me out the way you'd always stare
Instead of just talking to me
I don't talk to people because they don't talk to me
Why waste my valuable time on people who don't even like me
Misunderstanding me and hurting my feelings then making accusations and trying to control me
I didnt speak because I was respecting you
I don't even know what I want anymore im confused
The painband hurt these last 3 years of trying to open my heart space was a huge mistake
Now I feel guarded and each time I look I know its the same story
When it comes to your culture im not good unless I change
I tried to, but if I cannot even be myself I don't want to live a lie