Don't we often feel how stupid it was
When we really like someone
So much That we buy all these new clothes, shoes, accessories
Anything to make them look at us
Though that's not part of the plan of God
We mature first then our soulmate comes when we are ready for them
Sometimes we might never be ready for them or they are not ready for us
We live a fulfilling life serving humanity
I'm sorry soul and heart that I put you through such torture
For not learning my lesson sooner
Sorry I was so over sensitive and emotional, but watch this hurt turn me into a better woman
Watch me prove to myself that nothing else will hurt me
That I will be a good humanitarian
Let me do anything I set my heart and mind to
Love is no longer on mu mind because I'm giving up
I give my soul to my lord almighty
Nobody will ever hurt me again
Forgive me for allowing it to hurt me
Help me heal and allow me to please you
Forgive me if I make bumps along the road
I am just a slave who will make mistakes
I know what I must do and follow the perfect example of the prophet
I will continue on my journey and no more validation or distractions
It's you and me until the end
You always send me the clarity
I should have listened to my intuition
Silence is still a message
I did wrongs and I know I let you down
I let myself down and they all left me out in the cold
Yet my heart didn't bleed it cried with joy because I smelled freedom
They were a season to show me and learn me the arts of deception
My heart thanks you because without you where will I be, but a lost crushed up leaf blown away unable to fund herself again
At least with your blessed rain on me I wouldn't fall apart I'd lay here until the spring of 2015 and really blossom
I know you will give me everything I dreamed of
We have a deep connection and my love for you is special ❤️
I love you my Dear Allah who created me
You make me smile and fill my heart with upmost joy