Your energy is toxic
Dirty and envious
Even from a distance I feel it strongly
You act confident, but I know you hide your trueself
A truly shy, insecure person
With anxiety
Or it wouldn't hit me so strongly
Like I'm in a river and the currents pull me into an oblivion
Where the water fills up my lungs
The rest is history
Yer I'm still here fighting off these dull aches
Those what ifs and why's
I have yet to understand why your presence in my life is relevant
Nobody has stronger energy than you
Is this a sign that I know who you are
Without you even telling me
That I dreamnt of you being vulnerable
I left you in my memory
Not to consume my life, but to remind me
There's good and bad in everyone even ourselves
Everyone deserves love and forgiveness
Perhaps you were my reminder that you're also just human
You're not a superhero and I wasn't expecting that
I wanted something you're not ready to give me
Or is this a sign to wait for you until death does me part
Only God will answer my questions now