bits of freedom I have found
through light and truth but I'm still bound
trapped inside hormonal HELL
yesterday free today in jail
Yesterdays normal cry of child
today the same drives me wild
One week each month to experience bliss
don't think I can take more of this
DiSConTenteD children cry
rage and guilt well up inside
my body shuts out God's own Will
Three weeks a month I live in HELL
For 20 years caught in rain
Can't afford to heal the pain
Yesterdays Faith fought off lack
todays cloud brought it back
fighting fantasy of golden dream
a functional family flowing stream
God you promised to heal the pain
what am I not doing... am I insane?
The stress and chaos in my Bones
for a time I must be alone
Everything in mount is heaping
let this end I can't stop weeping
I thank you in advance for the answered prayer
Lord, lift me up
take me out of here
If not for me...
for my children's
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JudyLea Copyright 2003
"Pour out your heart like water before the face of the Lord. Lift your hands toward Him for the life of your young children." Lam. 2:19 NKJV
"The multitude of my anxieties with in me, Your comforts oh Lord delight my soul." Psalm 94:19
"your mercy oh Lord will hold me up." Ps 94:18
JOURNAL ENTRY: June 22, 2005, God delivered me from a 25 year battle with PMDD. After I quit begging for help and claimed my healing, he already had available for me, in Jesus name. I also had to accept that there is no healing apart from God whether He uses surgery or supernatural devine healing. During that time, although very painful, God made me strong and I grew in my relationship with Him. You see Him in my poetry."God turns all things to good for those who love Him"(Romans 8:28)"The people that walked in darkness have seen a great light:'Isaiah 9:2
