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No More Fishies, And NoMore Wishesit pained me to walk into this bathroom.. i was in this sleep clinic so they could see if these reacurring cysts in my face would lead to more of this repeated sense of impending doom. in my cozy room with straps and electrodes and people who don't know, who try to.. not like you do but i can't talk to you can't share the fear assaulted memories bring me back and again it pains me walking into that bathroom you know what i saw? a shower curtain with fishies.. just like the one i bought you the same one i stole back from you remember? it was blue with fish that were tropical makes me feel blue remembering the way i treated you makes me feel black full of wishes surrounded by those fishies.. i lost you, you lost me and the clearer my head i remember.. not wanting any of us dead. all i wanted (at that time) to do was take glue (no matter how crazy it was) i wanted to take glue and put the pieces back they way used to be. potentially. fixing you and me. so deeply pained by that stupid curtain! that turned out to be a window pane to the past and what had happened. in the last desperate (claw to hang on) days of this aquaintance. thinking alone in this room with it's staps and electrodes i thought about tearing down that curtain and sending it to you you who's life (i) turned into a zoo but nothing remains yet,little and big things stay forever and a day, set in clay. a guilty conscience makes it that way.. God, help me find another bathroom in this place.. one with no more fishies and no more wishes. ~-*Surrealdancingpoet*-~ (This Poem Is In Dedication To Those Surviving Cancer, Have Survied it, Or Is Going Up For Their Second Or Third Round and No Matter What Falls Around Us We Stand Up Strong and Keep Fighting; Even If We Have To Without The Help Of Other Human Beings, We Always Have God. This Is Also Largely Dedicated To The Family and Friends Of Those Who Didn't Make It.) Vote for this poem
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