Where Silver Tears Do Rust

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My Story...2001

Today, I'll fly with angels
Choose to leave it all behind
No more responsibilities
The errors were not mine

I no longer want to play
This heart wrenching, awful game
Couldn't stand the sparring
The tear shed and the blame

To my mothers bosom
I shall surely run
For she will not believe them
The things that I've said and done


My wife, she stood beside me
But asked of me too much
When I had a bad day
She told the kids to hush

Today, I'll fly with angels
Choose to leave it all behind
I will tell my story
That they alone were blind

In my heart, I could not measure up
To what I think a man should be
And so I could not see
That they all needed me

I lost the boy that I called my son
The girl I wished was mine
The eldest that I created
Now I'm left all alone

I cannot forgive myself
So I cannot accept their pain
For things that have been said and done
And so I'll fly away

Today, I'll fly with angels
Freedom in my wings
The guitar that I play shall be my harp
I leave behind, my calling
And some of my worldly things

In my heart, I cannot measure up
To what I think a man should be
And so I'll fly with the angels
Although they needed me...

L.A.McNabb
2001
Copyright © 2004 Lori Ann McNabb, All Rights Reserved

Written for the father of my 3 youngest sons shortly after his suicide attempt. He moved out, moved on and is now living the life that he often spoke of...


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My Story...2001