Immortal coil into the night,
I don't know where she went or what to do,
They leave me so fast,
Like the way deer flee when they hear you coming.
I was meant to be here, or was I,
Everything feels like it was lived by me once already,
Déjà vu.
I wish I could bring them back,
All of them, especially her.
Take her away from the baby blue
Backdrop she has fallen into.
It's like when I saw her,
She looked like death sleeping on a bench,
Drenched in red and wearing her black,
As was her motif.
I turned her over, expecting her to still be breathing
But there was nothing left,
There was no one peering out of those eyes,
Only a body, no life contain within.
I wanted to pick her up and take her to be helped
And I also wanted to leave her there for someone else to find.
I'm horrified.
I'm sickened and now I'm scared.
Who's next after her and why isn't it ever me?
She's wearing that jaded dolphin on a beaded necklace
That I made for her years ago.
If only the family knew what I have seen.
Baby girl's blue eyes just looked on,
I know she regarded life as though she were immortal,
But here she lies, contradicting her statements.
The animation she once portrayed is now
A legacy to me.
Everything she stood for is gone.
I think…now I think…
She will never see those movies or read those books…
She will never be able to write or sing or dance ever again…
She will never see how she has influenced lives and I weep…
She will never know the power she had over me as a friend…
Most importantly, now that she has passed,
I don't know who is still holding on,
Me, or her.