Am I a part of the living or..
am I already dead?
Can't clearly think with razor
wire above my head.
Where did my love,trust,fun,and
honesty all go?
At times I wonder,but then again..
I already know.
There are those times when..
I just sit and ponder.
For minutes,hours, days into night.
All the while ignoring..
The constant voices that tell me
I have lost the fight.
Love is the emotion that seems
to be a lifetime ago.
Trust is something I forgot..
And can remember no more.
Fun was long before institutions and
going to jail.
Then...there are those moments when
I'm hopeless with absolutely
No place to be.
A life full of regrets because
I left honesty;honesty never left me.
As I search and reach for that safe
and secure place where I belong;
I thank God for keeping me healthy
and fairly strong.
Today in my mind..I went to the heavens;
For reasons and then questioned why!?
With a smile was answered,
"My Son,Soon as you were born you began to die"
David Ping Jr.
"Estelle Unit 2004"