I've figured it out. My head was all wrong.
I suppose it's still not right.
But I don't want you to worry about me,
Because it occurred to me last night:
It's not you. It was never you.
It's everything I've felt until now.
I have every reason to trust you- I'm trying…
But I've been hurt. I don't know how.
I have never known real honesty.
Or genuine intentions.
That a person could possess these things,
Is beyond my comprehension.
I've come to expect the worst from people.
And a part of me is still scared.
Though I know you really love me,
My past has left me impaired.
All this is so new to me.
I don't want to push you away…
But I feel like that's what I'm doing to you
With all the words I can't say.
Never question my feelings for you,
If I sit and cannot speak.
I just need to feel like you need me sometimes-
I am insecure and weak.
With time I'll fit into this skin.
There's not much you can do.
Just give me time and understand-
And know that I love you.