I wish that I could free myself
of all the guilt and pain.
I've lived a life that cost so much,
Yet...I gave it all away!
I don't think I've stopped too often...
To take a look back at my life,
Now I see I have no choice,because
I've made my way to prison.
Anger,resentment,hatred,rage and pain;
Is all I've felt inside...
It's what I dealt with each day.
However;when they take a closer look,
I used it all as an excuse to hide or get high.
When I got high and drunk...
I told myself..."I could rule the world",
But now I see while I was drunk,
I forgot about my little girl.
In this life you have to chose...
Do you want to live or die?
Only you can make that decision...
I find myself so confused at times;
It makes me wanna cry...
To know that I could have lost my life!
I give up everything I've known,
To learn to live again.
I have a chance to know myself,
And to become somebody again.
I have to get my life together,
Try to get it straight,
Because you see...it's my choice,
Only I control my own fate.
At one point I'd lay in bed,
Hoping I would die...
To not have to live this life.
Now I see a better way...
And I'll make better choices,
for brighter days.
David Ping Jr.