~Daisy's Garden~ I want to be the one
to hold you when you
cry at night...I
want to be there when
you just dreamt about
your mother and you
wake up wanting to tell someone.
I want to be the one that
calls you into work sick
after a really bad night,
the one to stay up with you,
listen to your thoughts,
your fears, your dreams.
I want to keep being the one
you call when you can't breathe,
the one to take off work when
you need me to be with you.
I want to keep saving your life,
your hope that love still exists.
I want to cook out in my backyard
while your boys laugh and play tag,
to sit around the table with
your kids and mine and
recite movie lines.
I want to be the one to
get out a big pile of
blankets and pillows as
we all snuggle to watch movies.
I want to cook for you,
to surprise you by doing your dishes,
straightening your pile of books.
I want to sing with you as we
listen to a new cd,
pick out clothes together,
test drive cars on our lunch break,
go to the grocery store and
plan a meal together.
I want to be in your arms
when the birds wake up and
hear you whisper, "Listen,
that's a cardinals song"
as tears fill your eyes.
I want to read the paper
sitting next to you on
my porch swing or place
a peony you just picked
behing my ear as you smile.
I want to keep a purple toothbrush
on my bathroom sink just for you,
extra pillows on my bed in case
you come over to spend the night.
I want to go out to eat with
your parents and spill my drink
just to watch them laugh at me
as we share a knowing smile.
There are so many things
we have shared together...
I don't want to start over
with anyone else. I only
want to keep growing with you,
learning to love you more
with each new day, but how
can I do that if you go away?
I left work last night because
when I thought about losing you,
I couldn't breathe~I had to see you,
feel your arms around me,
memorize what you looked like
silhouetted in the moonlight
as you lay sleeping.
I drove so fast,
my heart racing,
tightness in my chest,
and I couldn't breathe
until my key unlocked your door
and I stepped inside and heard
your precious breath.
I love you, baby.
I don't want to live my life
regretting all the moments
that you and I could have shared
if only you hadn't gone away.
I need a sign of peace,
the kind that can only come
when you unpack your suitcase
and promise to stay.
