It was too painful
when I decided to leave you behind,
I was still in love with you
yet I wasn't ready to reveal my real personification;
Because the denomination and the society
we’ve both dealt with were too judgmental;
And I was not very sure
if you were worth the trouble.
I did move on despite the emptiness within,
It was actually hard to get on
when you still occupy my mind;
Yes, others came by to heal my damaged heart,
But I couldn’t love them
the way I did love you before.
It’s been 14 long years
and we finally got in touch again,
It’s weird, you know, so strange
that I felt no more spark at all;
For more than a decade I thought I was lying to myself,
But I do found out that after all those years,
I’m not in love with you anymore.