It's been five months since Pam and I met via cyberspace but I still can't get over her. I tried to preoccupy myself with paper works, write-ups, babysitting my kid and surfing the net but to no avail. She's always on my mind and I even pretend she doesn't exist in my world anymore. I hurt her real bad and I know she's not ready yet to forgive me but I terribly miss her as of this juncture. I followed her wishes of not contacting her in any sort of communication but I'm pretty sure she still monitors my status quo here at my poetry site as well as FFF. The feelings I have for this 30-year-old five feet tall woman is extremely strong overcoming all the affections I had in the past. I just can't elaborate why I am still head over heels in love with her the fact that she turned her back and decided to drift away from me. Even in my sleep she's there in my dreams that sometimes I don't wanna wake up yet to feel her, to talk to her, to make love with her. It's first time in my whole life that I fell in love this much and I don't know when and how can I get over her. ---SALLIE/June 20,2004