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Out Of Control…!I like my life to plod along, And happily wander through, All arranged, in control, So I always know what to do! I get unwell, I need an operation, No problem, aint no sweat, So off I go to the hospital, For the arrangements are all set! Go in get fixed get out go home, And take each day at a time, Until the healing process is over, And once more I'm feeling fine! Then one day it came to pass, That I lost total and utter control, Everything went wrong, I got scared, And crawled into a deep dark hole! Out of control, out of my hands, Something awful had happened you see! For nothing was right, I'd had a fright, And it almost killed the heart of me! Out of control, I can't be out of control, I need to have control over me!!! It went out of my hands, and into others, For a reason that I just can't see! Now in my head are thoughts… So scary, mixed up and confused! Scared of the future, scared of the past, This isn't easy and it's no ruse! I'm having a problem just now, You see, something happened one day, And the reaper popped in to see me… But he didn't come to stay! I fought against him harshly, And I held onto that fight! For he wasn't about to get me, Not on that almost fateful night! So though it was out of my control, I still hung on in there with all my might! I fought against the darkness around me, No way was I going to die that night! But the fear, oh God, the fear in me, It tore at my very soul… And now I wonder about the future, Wondering, will I ever again feel whole? So I try to block out the nightmare, That grips me each and every day! This fear I have, this persecution in me, I fear that it will forever – stay! I need to look to the positive side, But I'm failing in that task, For I am hiding away from everyone, By wearing this foolish mask! I am trying, oh so very hard, To see this to the bitter end, To rid my nightmares of the day and night, So peace will become my friend… I live it, breathe it, taste it, and fear it! The future that is waiting for me! How will I deal with, how will I cope? Will I ever really be set free? I still live in the past nightmare, And I feel the fear in my heart and head, The thought of that almost fateful night, That night where I almost ended up dead! And now a time has come to pass, That finally that fear is reality no more, For an amazing man put me to rights, And now I am through another door! But the door that I am now through, Is jaded by my fear… How can I have a normal life! When nothing in my head is clear! I am not a negative person, That can never be told of me! For I am more optimistic than most, I'm tough and have much strength you see! So now I need to realize, That I have to dig deep inside, Pull at the core, face my fear, No more running, but open my heart wide! Let in the positive flow, And lose all the fear I feel… For up to now, and for a very long time, Everything seemed so surreal! But real it is, and I have to face… Whatever lies ahead for me! Move into the future, lose the past, If I want ‘me' to be set free! I have to look to the future, And as I raise my eyes to Heaven above, I ask for His divine intervention, And ask that He bestows on me, His love. I am strong of constitution and heart, And my faith is deep within… And just for now, I need a little help… For this fight – that I need to win! Poetry Ad-Free Upgrades Vote for this poem
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