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The Keeper Of ‘MY' Gate!!!This is the longest poem I have ever written... And the most traumatic! ...I Opened A Can Of Worms This Day... ***And Great Big Snakes Went Free*** She stood at the gates of my future, And led me straight to hell! I didn't know it at the time though! But now I do, and it's time to tell! I see you there that night you know! Stood at the side of my bed! You spoke of the impending operation, And this is what you said! ‘They will do this and that! But they won't remove that part! That's because that's far too dangerous – So this warning I have to impart!' But she didn't impart that warning! And there was no way for me to know, That without those vital hormones, The walk of hell was where I'd go! I thought the dangers she wouldn't tell... Was that the operation was a bigger one, The procedure was a risk in itself, But by not telling, oh look what she's done! And that's how you sent me to hell! Because you never told me why! All I knew for certain was, I needed this operation or I would die! You stood over me that day, Telling us this that and the other would occur, And every time I asked why it's dangerous – You wouldn't tell me! That's unfair! You stood there so condescending! And spoke to me like I was a child! Looking down your nose at me! Well that day lives with me all the while! Because you wouldn't listen to what I said! You took it upon yourself to ignore… You thought you knew the answers! As you stood at my future door! The tunnel lay behind you! You were the keeper of my gate! You led me straight into hell! Your bombastic attitude sealed my fate! Have I Got Your Attention? Then Please Read On! I abhor what you did to me! And for the past 15 months of hellfire! It was ‘your' entire fault; it's at 'your' feet! Because you left my life in the mire! You bombastic cow!! That's what you are! Dictating what you thought you knew! You kept telling me it was dangerous, To do to me what they had to do! I asked you over and over again; What was the danger to me! But you chose to ignore the question! For no reason I could see! Standing there so smugly, Yes you, Mrs know-it all! You wouldn't listen to me, And that's caused me to take a fall! For the last 15 months of my life, I have walked the walk to hell! And all because of a fool - you!!! You caused pain and anguish, can you tell! Yes, there were more medical people, Involved in this mess - that's true! But I tell you true, that makes no bloody difference, Because this is all down to you!!!!! You told me it was dangerous, Over and over and over again! I asked you constantly to tell me why, But you ignored me and you caused such pain!! Pain that could have been averted, This shouldn't have happened to me! This is down to negligence – and yes, All down to you and now the reason at last, I see! ...And It Get's Worse... I know of the ‘dangers' you told of, Or rather, what you didn't tell! The reason, wow, who knows! But you sent me straight to hell!!! For 18 years after that surgery! But more the past 15 months for me…! Has been lived in fear, torture and pain! A mess that shouldn't be! But a bloody mess it is, And you could have prevented it, yes - you! But the fact of the matter is – You failed to tell me true! The ‘danger' that you told of – Or rather, didn't tell! Caused me so much anguish, That you sent me on the road to hell! The last 15 months of my life have been torture – Every night and every day! I have hardly slept a wink, But now I need to have my say! I haven't been able to move forward! For 15 months, yes, 15 months of hell! And why, do you want to know why? Then sit nice and I will tell! Because of 18 years ago! And the unanswered questions you wouldn't tell, It has caused me 3 more operations! So, yes, my life's been hell!!! Not just any operations either! But life threatening procedures too! I almost lost my life – And yes, it's down to you! You have no idea - but by playing God! Hell is what you put me through! And today, well, let's see now... Today's been horrifically enlightening for me… For today those questions were answered… But certainly not by she! Had she answered those questions…! It would have altered my fate, But she didn't! And now, 18 years on, It is by far, much too much late! 15 months of torture, 15 months of nightmares! Yes, 15 months of hell! She caused all that, I jest you not! With the answers she wouldn't tell! Because you see, she knew! The repercussions of that surgery would be… But me, I didn't, why? Because she wouldn't explain to me! Hell you sent me! Hell I arrived! I've been in hell for 15 months long! You made a mess of my life, YOU DID!!! And that was totally wrong! No need for explanations now though, I have my answers at last! Maybe now I can work it through, And put these nightmares in the past! Your attitude was one of indifference But this I tell you true, If I could ever find you – God knows what I would do! For something horrific happened - And I can't explain why, All I will say is this… This day of truth made me sob and cry… I shouldn't be in a wheelchair! I shouldn't have gone through hell! And all because of a stupid fool, Who refused me flatly to explain and tell!!! So thank your lucky stars lady! That I don't know your name or address! Cos be certain of one thing – I'd make your life a bloody mess!!!! I could sue you! Make you suffer, As you had me suffer so! But I am better than that – and here I am… Trying to let it go! I walk the walk of hell, And you don't even care! But that's not the worst is it! Because you put me in a wheelchair! I want you to feel my anger! I want you to feel my pain! I want to turn the clock back, And start it over again! …But I can't can I… Because You - A Stupid Bastard Left Me In The Dark! And The Unanswered Question; Equals The Result I've been in a wheelchair for 9 years! My bones are crumbling through osteoporosis! I have heart disease, I am riddled in arthritis; I have cervical and lower lumbar spondylosis! ...I live in constant pain... And more horrific was the past 15 months of hell! Through something that almost took my life... And why is all that you may ask yourself ladies? Because My Body Had No Hormones!!! She Sealed My Fate! No HRT = A Life Of Hell! Unbelieveable Isn't It! But It's True! ***I Preach It For A Reason*** ...And I Lay My Heart Bare... ***To Get The Message Across*** Did It Work? I Hope So! Poetry Ad-Free Upgrades Vote for this poem
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