Did you know that you save me
one hug and kiss at a time...
You are what is right in my life.
Somehow, even when things go wrong,
and they seem to always go wrong,
you help make my cross easier to bear~
With you, I laugh...dare to dream,
cry and talk and feel cherished.
You rarely say, "I love you"
but I don't need to hear the words.
I have learned that from you.
I thought the words were
so damn important before but
they were empty promises.
I am learning to trust in
your actions...the way that
you look at me, your phone calls,
knowing that I will wake up each day
and still have a best friend
who loves me just the way I am,
someone who can't wait to
spend time together and
will help me weather life's storms,
someone to celebrate good news with
or just someone to sit beside in silence,
knowing that I am not alone.
We share meals and movies and
bottles of cheap wine,
stories about our daily lives,
special events and mutual friends.
I am alone tonight as you
lie in your bed sick and I am
wondering how you're feeling,
wishing I could take your
discomforts away, wanting
to talk to you but not
to disturb your sleep,
praying that you have found
some peace in the night,
and feeling helpless
knowing that you suffer.
I am home alone and my house
is quiet, children tucked in,
and I just got done watching
the most incredible movie,
one that made me think about
people that are in our lives.
I should be sleeping now.
But I felt as if I needed
to write about feelings,
to let you know in case
I get shot tommorow
by a stray bullet...
that you have made
a difference in my life.
This isn't very eloquent.
The more I care about someone,
the harder it is to write about them.
That's why there are less poems
about you and rarely one
about my children.
The greatest writers in the world
have the hardest time expressing
that which they hold dear...
obsessions, loneliness, despair...
those are the easy ones to write.
I am alone tonight,
but I am wearing the t-shirt
you bought me that matches yours,
smelling your scent on my pillow,
keeping thoughts of you in my mind
and special memories close by.
There are reminders of you everywhere.
And they remind me that
I am special to you.
I felt as if I don't tell you anymore
how I feel and I don't want you to wonder.
I really just want to say something simple,
though I'm not being economical with my words.
All I really want to say,
just in case I never get another chance...
is simply~thank you for being in my life.
You are precious to me.
