Death breathed on my skin today
I felt it close
to this I have much emotion
I wish the tears felt real
The news a Joke
Reality harkens in desperate time
please don't let me go
I'm grasping violent for the straws
to trade this for more
I want to accept myself
The need for education
want to erradicate self destruction
Idealy, thus I am pacified
I wish I could Promise more
Spread so thin over vast distances
Losing flavor
half opened - half closed
Reluctant open arms greet you
The baggage overwhelms me so
Into the dark you go to find solice
comfort evades me
when caring for you
love is a loose word
Touching fills the spaces
Leaving me convulsing
Leaves me wanting more
soaked in pleasure
to help me forget
Slowly building into healthy fears
I need, I need, I'm lost
It's the adoration I long for
The restless abandon
the resistance, a fool
My scars show in such light
I'd go to him ignorantly
Help me see clear
You can feel my sorrow
It pains you
I see it in your eyes
learning and decoding patience
do you remember me calling
I could not help it even then
I am but sore preperation for life
hardly living in that limelight
Perception clouded by illusions
My dreams hover waking hours
Untill nothing seems touchable
everythings rushing over me
I can not make it stop