BEHIND THE MASK OF BEAUTY

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Suicide is on my mind, I think about it every day
It's the only way I can make my pain go away
I don't want to die yet but it keeps me from thinking
Thinking about the problems my life has been bringing
I cry so much more now and it's always on my mind
Sometimes I think " What can be better than ending my life? "
At least I won't be here in this horrible hell
It's like being locked up in some rotten cell
I get yelled at all the time for things I didn't do
When I talk to them they always think I am not being true
All I have left are my true friends
Now that they've taken them away my life mine as well end
They were always there for me to talk to
I'd go to them with my problems and they would know what to do
I tried talking to my family, but it was like talking to the air
They would listen but not understand, it was like they didn't care
All I do is go to my room and think about my life
What it would be like if I were to die
Would anyone miss me? Would anyone care?
Would anyone even notice if I am not there?
Will there be tears of happiness or tears of pain?
Will everything still be my fault or will they find someone else to blame
At this point I don't know, and I'm not sure if I care
I wonder if they will notice it tomorrow when I am not there

CRYSTAL MARTINEZ

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