Beautiful Disaster
You Never Knew
You never knew
That everything you ever did
Affected me
That those dumb decisions
Were life changing
For me
Now you can live a normal life
And hang out with your friends
As if nothing ever happened
While I am stuck home alone
Afraid to fail or be rejected
Obsessing over tedious matters
It doesn't seem fair to me
That you can come out
From this car crash scratch free
While I was sent to the ER
And still and always will be
recovering
You have no scars, no internal pains
You bled no blood and felt no pain
As the pain I have had to feel
And it makes me so mad
That you can be so care-free
After all that has happened
But more than I am mad
I am
Jealous
That everything you ever did
Affected me
That those dumb decisions
Were life changing
For me
Now you can live a normal life
And hang out with your friends
As if nothing ever happened
While I am stuck home alone
Afraid to fail or be rejected
Obsessing over tedious matters
It doesn't seem fair to me
That you can come out
From this car crash scratch free
While I was sent to the ER
And still and always will be
recovering
You have no scars, no internal pains
You bled no blood and felt no pain
As the pain I have had to feel
And it makes me so mad
That you can be so care-free
After all that has happened
But more than I am mad
I am
Jealous
