The rain is falling from a cold grey sky.
My heart is also cold, and it lies like a stone in my body.
I feel no pain, only lonliness and hopeless Desperation.
My unhappy state is due to my own actions.
I have created my reality, and now i must live within it.
This world I see is bleak.
I do not feel love or happiness any more.
I have no one with whom to share joy.
The hours go by, stringing together the days,
Like a cheap plastic necklace,
Sure to choke anyone who would dare to put it on.
I do not care about anything any more...
I am not completely here,
But someplace between the worlds,
I am living in a limbo of emotions.
The music that so delighted me...
Now seems discordant in my head.
I only think of what has been taken from me,
Every thing else is pale and unimportant.
I am unloved, and unlovely.
I eat my guilt, and it is bitter...
My shame is complete.
