Memories of you slide quickly in and out
of my consciousness,
bringing brief, unwelcomed moments
of nostalgia to my restless heart.
I gently push them aside,
not wanting to feel the stabbing pangs
that your absence brings.
I deny this unquenchable thirst
that exists deep in my lost soul.
The slow, mournful bells toll.
Their message deafens me.
Your unexpected exit from my life
leaves my anguished soul
lost in a sea of darkness,
from which there is no escape.
I float in limbo with no direction,
like a ship in uncharted waters,
willing to succumb to my nebulous destiny,
praying for strength to reclaim
a shred of my once vibrant life.
I look to the sky for answers
and am inexplicably guided by the stars
to steer this forlorn ship back to safety,
creating a new direction and wholeness of spirit
and opportunity for love to thrive again
in this renewed heart.