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The Dice Rolled…


...For Betty, My Forever Friend…

Never Forgotten And Always Loved.

The dice rolled as it does,
But we didn't know how it would be,
Would we both get better?
My friend, Betty and me!
We walked the walk of hell;
Our shoes were the same…
Not knowing how the dice would fall,
And if we would be well again!

We wore the same shoes you know!
And supported each other at length,
Leaned on each other all the time,
And relied on each others strength!
We laughed, we cried, we sobbed;
Our tears never seemed to stop,
And every time we saw each other,
More tears seemed to drop.

And we weren't selfish at all,
We each prayed for the other to be well,
Time and again, we felt such pain,
As we walked the walk of hell!
We told each other thing's so scary,
Things we couldn't say to another,
Not to a brother or sister…
Not to a father, or a mother!

So we talked of the dice that rolled,
Wondering where it would fall,
Praying that we wouldn't die that time,
And fighting with our all!
‘Will we, wont we, will she wont she?'  
We repeated over and again,
The fear that was within us –
Drove us to almost being insane!

Then the dice finally fell one day,
And the game of chance had started,
We knew with all certainty…
That soon we would both be parted!
Holding each other close…
We cried and cried, and cried again,
Sobbing all over each other…
Full of such heartache and pain!

I begged this icon called; God,
To spare this friend of mine,
And let her live, don't let her die,
For she was a person so good and fine!
But He didn't, He didn't listen,
Well if He did, He never heard,
And to this day, though I still pray,
I don't understand why she wasn't spared!

So the dice fell to the ground this day,
The path was set for her to tread…
We cried and cried and sobbed so hard,
At the fact she would soon be dead!
And so therein my guilt does lie,
How on earth must she have felt?
To know I was going to live…
And to know the hand that she was dealt!

She told me I had not to worry,
And that I must not be so sad…
But I can never lose the guilt in me, that I lived –
For the pain in me is so bad!
That last day we held each other close,
Knowing the time had come to pass,
She…so ill and weary…
So frail, like crystal glass!

‘I'm ok!' She told me that day,
‘There is something better for me,
For all I have at this time in my life is pain,
And pain is all I see!'
She held me in her arms that day,
While my heart was broken in two,
How could He let her go away? In my grief,
I didn't know what to do!

She looked me in the eyes,
So sweet a person was she…
And smiled a smile, that said its ok,
For she couldn't stay, it wasn't to be!
‘I don't want you feeling guilty!' She said,
‘Because you live while I die,
And more, you mustn't be sad for me,
And no more tears will you cry!'

But cry I did, and still I do…
And the guilt in me lives on,
So sad am I, that I saw her die…
And there was nothing to be done.
The dice had rolled, and fallen,
‘Against' her, but ‘for' me,
How do I live with that guilt?
That's deep inside the heart of me!

I can't, I don't know how…
To lose the guilt I carry for years,
And never a day goes by…
That I think of her as I shed my tears!
‘Don't you cry for me!'  She said,
‘No more tears from your eye!
I don't want you to be upset,
When the time comes for me to die!'

The next morning in her bed she sat,
Brushing her teeth and combing her hair,
Her heart gave out, like a candle in the wind,
And her presence filled the air…

Why did I live?
Why did she die?
Why do I pain?
Why do I cry?

...Because The Dice Rolled...








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