"The Grief of First" and life of another (revised.)
How I felt that first march long ago
First I was happy that I was where I was
When over two thousand miles away
A tragedy has occurred my son has died
Blaming myself was all I could know
For ever have letting both my children go
Cause with one I only hope she wants to be
Here back with me before she had to see
What has happened too her brother and Grandma
What an accident caused by sleepy mawmaw
Even the UPS truck was not the blame
For the careless driving of tiredness
Veering off into other lane to become
Just another accident victim to death
and have forever memories of such an incident
My daughter who I haven't seen since 1 and half
Know I have felt anguish for heavenly son
and he was four years old and I pregnant again
My third six months pregnant and thinking
Soon I will have my divorce from a wretched man
Married again I am with two more children
And a knowing I am always thinking of first two.
But not the ex husband for who I blame
Has he forgotten his wounds of his losses
Only he cannot forget that I hurt
How he won't let my daughter come see me
Its just to dam expensive to travel these days
I wish he didn't hold grudges but he does
All I can remember is that dream where
My son and grandma graced me with to help me
From pains of mourning while pregnant and waiting
Loss dedication to Codey my first love, those tiny beady eyes opened up to see me while laying in my now deflated belly. A memory so deeply embedded inside I shall never forget the overwhelming love for another. He died in March, 1999. And my third was born June 15, 1999.
Added dedication July 30, 2006
