I feel trapped with no way out, feeling
more more less loved as the days passes by
but deep in the core of my soul, I feel as if
I belong somewhere else....not knowing exactly where
I just know its not where I'm at now.
I long so much to be treated like a queen
I read so many beautiful words and fall off into a dream
because I'm missing that in my life...no kisses no hugs
just two bodies waiting to die, and that makes me sad
and I begin to cry...because I feel as though I deserve
more...and when I say more I don't mean materialistic things
I mean pure sincere unconditional love...like the
the ocean so peaceful..so full of promises hopes and dreams
the ocean reminds me of god...simply beautiful in every way
I want to serve him with all my heart...but its this fear
thats holding me back...but I must get strength and do as I
am told...life has mentally physically and sexually killed me
the little self esteem I had, has washed itself down the drain
leaving my heart wrap tightly in pain
I want a love bigger than this world could ever offer
I want so much to feel love every single min of the day
some call me strange for wanting love this way
but its the only way I'll ever want it to be
just me and him and god live happily and free