I am trying too hard.
You say i am stressed over nothing...
Compared to a girl with a perfect life.
Why is she so perfect and i don't know squad...
You never really taught me anything...
I learned all by myself and you just improve what is already there.
In a horrible way, but i am used to it and if you know that everynight...
I hurt myself inside just to forgive you.
I force myself to clean myheart for the sake of God so that He forgives you.
I try so hard and its a waste...
I am so much better than before...
You don't even see it.
Its like its invisible and its never good enough to be known and give me some peace.
Then you do the same and what i do to make you so angry i don't know.
Sometimes i don't even realise or know.
Then you say i am an immature because i am traumatized by things that have happened.
Then you say nobody said these things to you and you did if i ever kept a diary your eyes will pop out your lids because of the pain.
You call me a two faced Liar, but God will see you on the day and you will see what you done, but because i forgave you its gone...
You're Lucky its me and not anybody else because i have a clean heart...
Ok things can fill up inside and you don't help me to drain it.
You Keep ADDing FUel to everything and not want to blame yourself... you wanna know everything you done from A-Z --- but you do not even remember even if i remembered and told you to your face.
So when is this going to stop i am so sick of this i really am.