There are days out of the blue.
So bad and you don't have a why because their is no clue.
Yet this is an ugly time because of you.
As i see i am sinning writing this and hope to God if you read this you shall forgive me.
I hope you can understand and be able to see.
This is just the part.
Never read this with a blind heart.
A closed mind.
Or a soul that can't erase and rewind.
I will never understand you as a mother.
I sometimes feel i am yours yet the person is another.
You say things when they're done the damage has occured and been done say the most ridiculous things of skiness damp non sense and nag to hell and the damage is already done.
You never told me before its why i don't understand, every little thing i learned i learned alone and what is done is done.
I forgive you, but to forget i may forget when i am half way down in my grave as i hope i will to erase it from my heart.
Just you are good as a caring, but not enough did you think to learn things to teach me and you just learned to get by it wasn't maybe thinking heartful my own child could learn from my mistakes and you make it a crime to learn my own mistakes and nag me to hell without looking at the conclusion that it was partly because of your broken part.
So if something bad happens i know its my fault so stop the nag and if you really care take the blame not to humiliate me.
Yet your heart is never in the right place and i take it you no longer care.
Well i care and you did for many years to be fair.
Accept i'll never understand you.
I will never get through to you.
