There they were staring at me in a river of tears
what once was smiling faces for a number of years, had turned into frowns...
my kids standing there begging me not to leave, my husband on the other side
down upon his knees.... begging for forgiveness... I had broken all of their hearts, I felted ashamed. for I had caused those sad lonely faces.
how could I think about making myself happy, knowingly it would caused such great sadness...after being so UN-happy for years....what was a lifetime of UN-happiness going to hurt...I collapsed right there on the floor, me my baggage's and my ocean of tears
trapped inside my house....with no way of ever escaping....